I feel the need to be really honest about what’s going on in my life right now. It seems that I started this blog with the best of intentions, and then all hell broke loose. I took a break from blogging and pretty much started from scratch again last year, and now here I am. Wondering where the time has gone. It has been three months since my last blog post and I honestly feel like I blinked and it’s May. And I’m starting to see now that it’s all just been a bit too much for me to cope with. Blogging, photography, editing, writing, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram. There has just been no room for me to breathe, to spend time with people. Real people, my family and friends. Focusing on school and studying, trying to stay on top of my health problems.
I feel swallowed up in a vortex of all of the things I should be doing, but am not actually achieving. It’s just not working for me, so something has to change. I’ve come to understand that it’s really okay to admit you’re not coping. So that’s what I did and things are starting to look up.
While I’ve been MIA for the past few months I’ve really been trying to find my feet, in life in general. And I certainly think I’m a lot more grounded and focused than I was before. I know I still want to blog, it’s almost a release for me, it’s a creative outlet and that’s good! Everyone needs a hobby. But I think that’s what it needs to be, a hobby. I think I was putting so much pressure on myself to be good at all of the different things I was juggling that I just felt like I was drowning in it all.
So I’ve decided a change is in order. My blog posts may not all come out on the same day of the week, there may be weeks when I’m lucky to even get one out. But they wont be so forced, they’ll be written because I’m happy to do it and I enjoy it. I just needed a bit of space from blogging, from socialising, from excess stress. Because sometimes it’s all a bit too much.